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angela O:-)

you killed her you lil bitch O:-)

Aunt Margo is dead. Dead dead gone dead nevercomingbackdeaddeaddeaddead.

I am back in my abandoned house where I killed Daddy and where Daddy killed us piece by piece that horrible house she saved me from she's dead dead gone dead nevercomingbackdeaddeaddeaddead. 

I look at the sheets. Covered in blood. My blood. Alexei's blood. Dry and almost brown. I look at the carpet in the doorway. Blood. Dark and evil and dead. She's dead. She saved me and I couldn't save her couldn't save her dead dead gone dead nevercomingbackdeaddeaddeaddead. 

"I'm... pregnant!" 

She is shocked and angry and her mouth twitches and I start crying.

Why am I such a stupid slut?

Because sex is all I'm good for.

I'm a worthless whore and nobody will ever love me.

I can't even hear what Aunt Margo is saying because I'm crying.

My baby is gonna die.

I'm gonna get pushed down the stairs till it stops kicking.

Daddy's gonna hurt me.

She's gonna kick me out and I'm gonna get kicked and pushed and fucked.

She says something.

"What?"

She is not kicking me out. 

I hug her.

Stop thinking thinking thinking about her she's dead dead gone dead nevercomingbackdeaddeaddeaddead. 

She saved me and I couldn't save her.

Cora sits with me by the river and we touch the fish.

"She's gonna hate me," I say with a smile, flipping my hair over my shoulder. 

"Oh, no, she won't." 

"I'm a slut."

"Oh, don't say that."

"I'm not organized and perfect enough to live with someone who can't stand dust."

I hear a helicopter. 

Must be going to the hospital or something. 

Alexei frowns and points at the sky.

I look up.

The helicopter starts to land.

"Oh dear," Cora says softly. "I told her not to bring the helicopter." 

Good God.

She saved me and I couldn't save her dead dead gone dead nevercomingbackdeaddeaddeaddead. 

The bed squeaks. I stare at the ceiling. My insides burn. My pelvis aches. I wonder if my hipbones are going to shatter. Maybe that would be good. They would drift through my poisoned blood and get stuck in my veins and rip them open and then I'd bleed and bleed and bleed and die right here under Daddy and maybe he'd feel guilty for once. He starts groaning and he grabs my breast hard and I close my eyes and hope my hipbones shatter.

I stare at the blood on the sheets and cry and press my face into the pillow and scream and scream and scream she's deaddeaddead. I tie the sheets around my throat and hope my head falls off but it just hurts and I cry.

for angela

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