I look out at the water as I stroll down the bridge slowly. Two figures come into view and I smile, making my way over, but slightly wishing I had worn a more... conventional shirt than Jake from Adventure Time smoking a joint. The girl looks up through her dark blonde bangs, seeming annoyed with everything. I continue to smile at her. "Hi." "Uh, hi." I notice a smoothie stand nearby. "Do you want a smoothie?" She blinks. "Uh, sure. Thanks..." I step over to the stand and purchase three smoothies, then carry them back over. "Thanks." The girl says again, handing who I assume is her brother one. He looks up at me. "Did you know eighteen people in the United States choke on ballpoint pens every year?" It's the boy from the library. The girl glances over at him, then back at me, I guess to see my facial expression. She seems surprised to see me nod with a slight smile. "Wow, that's really interesting." He nods back and looks down at his book again. "My name is Kristina." I offer, feeling obnoxiously friendly. "I'm Loreli." She mumbles. "This is my brother, Holt."
Friday, January 31, 2014
holtina fluff
I frown as I enter the library and find a group of guys surrounding the small table in the back. The librarian is out, and I wonder why the room isn't locked, but there are more important things to worry about, like the constantly increasing laughter and over played hand motions like mock sign language from the crowd at the back table. I assess my face in the mirror from my purse and decide I can probably scare them off. I saunter over, trying not to twist an ankle in my blue heels. Ugh, why didn't I just break uniform today? Everyone else does it. I tap on a big, jocky shoulder and feel short for a moment, but remember my heels make me like four inches taller. He turns, and I see the quiet, quirky boy from advanced English hunched over, covering his ears. A few of the guys in the group are doing the same. "What are you doing?" My voice is dripping with disgust. One smirks. "Want to join us?" Another stares at my breasts. Ugh. "Yeah, it's fun." "I asked what you were doing." The boy is shaking. "We're just playing with him." One laughs, and another nods, wringing his hands exaggeratedly. Both of them bust out laughing. "Stop it." "Why?" "Because it isn't funny. It's stupid. All of you are being stupid. Why don't you just leave him alone?" One chuckles. "What, do you have a crush on him?" The boy's face turns bright red and he balls his fists. "What are you in, the fourth grade? Shouldn't you be somewhere else, like, oh, I don't know, spreading your herpes?" A blond guy eyes my boobs again. "Whatever." He slightly smacks the kid in the back of the head before leading his pack away, all of them giggling to themselves obnoxiously. The boy peers up at me through his curly bangs, his face still red. I pick up two books and a crumpled piece of paper from the floor, stacking them and flattening the sheet of paper, which I can now see has part of an essay written on it. Shit, I haven't even started mine. He watches me carefully, like he's afraid I'll tear it up. I place it on his binder and smile at him slightly. He doesn't smile back, just opens the rings and places it behind a red divider. I decide to leave him alone, and walk back into the hallway to find Louis.
brigida varna fluff
When Varna looked up from his empty glass, Brigida was threatening someone with her nail, screaming personal experiences. The guy looked frightened and was holding his hands up. "DON'TTRYTOTOUCHMYBOOBSOHMYGOD!"
At that, Varna stood shakily and pulled her away from the poor man.
She stamped her small foot.
"Did you see him? He was looking at me! And /then/ he tried to grope my..." Her voice went small. "Breasts."
Varna sighed. "He was trying to show you he didn't want to hurt you."
She huffed and looked over her shoulder at her new enemy, who was pulling his coat on quickly and heading for the door. The crowd in the bar had left a huge space around the two of them.
Brigida looked up at her boyfriend. "Why is everyone afraid of me?"
He massaged his forehead. "Because you stab people with rusty nails."
She frowned and pulled at the hem of her dress, worrying again that it was too short. "Only because..."
"I know why, but they don't. You can't go up to every single guy who looks at you and tell him you're going to stab his eye out."
"I don't want to be stared at hungrily like a big filet of steak."
"I promise, most of the guys who look at you are not staring. But can you blame them? Your hair is bright orange and you're beautiful."
She blushed and broke eye contact.
He smiled at her and then steadied himself on the wall as the alcohol invaded his brain and took over.
Brigida wrapped her arms around his waist, not noticing, and rested her head on his chest.
"You're not helping." He groaned, trying hard to keep himself upright.
Maybe he shouldn't have had that last drink.
She didn't move.
"I want to go home," He heard her whisper. "This place is scary. I don't want to come here anymore."
"Why didn't you say that earlier, when I wasn't wasted?"
She looked up at him sadly, widening her eyes. "Please."
He sighed slowly, and pried her off of him.
She grabbed his hand and kept her other on her dress hem as they stumbled through the door together. "I don't want you to drive."
He laughed. "Neither do I."
She shivered. "Can we hurry?"
"I don't think that's an option."
They started down the sidewalk slowly, stopping occasionally for Varna to gain his footing, and Brigida growled viciously at every male they passed.
Finally, after Brigida's throat hurt and Varna was leaning on her shoulder, they reached the hospital.
They sneaked back into the psych ward and down to Brigida's room. He flopped onto the bed and let out a long moan.
She stood by the door uncomfortably. "Are you... like, staying?"
He snored in response.
She bit her lip and hurriedly stepped out of her dress and into her pajama pants and sweatshirt.
She poked his arm.
He didn't move.
"Varna." She hissed.
He didn't move.
She growled quietly.
He didn't move. She finally picked up his arm and positioned herself under it, pulling the blankets over both of them and turning out the light. She smiled and relaxed as his arm tightened around her securely.
Sunday, January 26, 2014
I sit up straight in my bed, my chest heaving.
Tears are running down my face and splashing on my sweatshirt.
Raspberry stirs beside me, then opens her eyes.
She reaches over to the table and clicks the lamp on. "What's wrong?"
I throw my arms around her and cry into her shoulder.
"It was just a dream," She whispers into my hair. "It wasn't real."
"Yes it was. It was Ashlynn. She was dying. Where's Augustine? I promised to take care of him."
She points across the room to where Augustine is lying in his little house.
I can't get out of the bed.
Raspberry has the covers tucked into the mattress.
I finally get out of the warm nest and bang my chin and elbow on the hard floor, wincing, but getting up quickly to run to my sweet little rat.
I pick him up and his eyes open quickly.
He looks around, his nose twitching rapidly.
I kiss his soft head repeatedly, and the tears start flowing again.
He was asleep.
I pick up his blanket and wrap it around him extra tight, then place him back in his bed made of old hospital mattress topper.
He stares up at me until his eyes close and he goes to sleep, like he's worried about me.
I put the lid back on his house loosely and return to my cousin, who looks concerned. "Are you okay?"
I nod and crawl back under the still warm blankets, holding Arden tightly.
She turns the light back off and pulls me closer.
I squeeze my eyes shut and hope I don't see any more dead girls tonight.
My room smells wonderful.
I open my eyes and a tray of belgian waffles cut out like hearts and covered in whipped cream, cinnamon rolls, eggs, bacon, fruit and glasses of milk is sitting on my bedside table.
Raspberry is smiling at me.
I sit up and look over at Augustine, who is sniffing profusely.
I smile back at Raspberry and slide out of bed, wrapping my arms around her.
She kisses my cheek. "Good morning, happy Valentine's Day."
I giggle. "Happy Valentine's Day."
Tears are running down my face and splashing on my sweatshirt.
Raspberry stirs beside me, then opens her eyes.
She reaches over to the table and clicks the lamp on. "What's wrong?"
I throw my arms around her and cry into her shoulder.
"It was just a dream," She whispers into my hair. "It wasn't real."
"Yes it was. It was Ashlynn. She was dying. Where's Augustine? I promised to take care of him."
She points across the room to where Augustine is lying in his little house.
Oh, no.
He's dead.
I can't get out of the bed.
Raspberry has the covers tucked into the mattress.
I finally get out of the warm nest and bang my chin and elbow on the hard floor, wincing, but getting up quickly to run to my sweet little rat.
I pick him up and his eyes open quickly.
He looks around, his nose twitching rapidly.
I kiss his soft head repeatedly, and the tears start flowing again.
He was asleep.
I pick up his blanket and wrap it around him extra tight, then place him back in his bed made of old hospital mattress topper.
He stares up at me until his eyes close and he goes to sleep, like he's worried about me.
I put the lid back on his house loosely and return to my cousin, who looks concerned. "Are you okay?"
I nod and crawl back under the still warm blankets, holding Arden tightly.
She turns the light back off and pulls me closer.
I squeeze my eyes shut and hope I don't see any more dead girls tonight.
My room smells wonderful.
I open my eyes and a tray of belgian waffles cut out like hearts and covered in whipped cream, cinnamon rolls, eggs, bacon, fruit and glasses of milk is sitting on my bedside table.
Raspberry is smiling at me.
I sit up and look over at Augustine, who is sniffing profusely.
I smile back at Raspberry and slide out of bed, wrapping my arms around her.
She kisses my cheek. "Good morning, happy Valentine's Day."
I giggle. "Happy Valentine's Day."
brberry.
I look up as my door slowly swings open.
Raspberry is standing in the doorway, her pretty pink hair in a braid down her shoulder. She's wearing a soft red sweater tucked into a white skirt. She has new black heels on, like little boots but with a peep toe. Her toenails are painted black like her fingernails. She's wearing white eyeshadow and hardly any mascara.
She clicks over to my bed and sits down.
I have been in the same spot for four days, except for getting up for the bathroom.
She touches my cheek. I stare at her.
"Why are you doing this to yourself?" Her voice is soft and high pitched.
I don't know how to answer. "M-miss you." Is all that comes out of my mouth.
She starts crying. "Brigida, you can't keep doing this. You're not taking care of yourself like you told me you would. I know you miss me, I miss you too."
"Why didn't you visit before?"
She sighs.
"I''m busy right now, I'm trying to adjust to living at home again. It's hard. The last time I was there, you were there too. You slept with me in my bed and we watched princess movies together. We did everything together. And when I get in that bed, all I think about is how much I've hurt you. Everything that's making you sad is my fault. I shouldn't have let my dad go to your house. I should've told my mom to bring you here with me, I should've waited to tell you about my boyfriend."
The last part makes my chest hurt.
She kisses my forehead and her tears fall on my face, sliding down my cheeks.
"Why do you love him more than me?" I whisper, staring up into her grey green eyes.
"It's a different kind of love," She squeaks. "Not a different quantity."
"I don't get it."
She strokes my hair. "I love him like your mom loved your dad. I love you in a completely different way. I can't describe how I love you. But it's different."
Her use of my parents makes my chest hurt again.
But then a strange feeling washes over me. I don't love her like my parents loved each other. I can't describe it either. But it's nothing like my mother and father.
"I... get it."
Her eyes widen. "You do?"
I nod.
She wraps her arms around me tight and pulls me into her lap. She smells like her perfume and coconut and cinnamon sugar and I bury my face into her sweater and breathe deeply.
Raspberry is standing in the doorway, her pretty pink hair in a braid down her shoulder. She's wearing a soft red sweater tucked into a white skirt. She has new black heels on, like little boots but with a peep toe. Her toenails are painted black like her fingernails. She's wearing white eyeshadow and hardly any mascara.
She looks beautiful.
She clicks over to my bed and sits down.
I have been in the same spot for four days, except for getting up for the bathroom.
My hair is in a bun, still wet from when Ben washed it last night.
I have dark circles under my eyes.
My lips are cracked and bleeding from licking them so much.
I've lost twenty pounds since Raspberry left the hospital.
Basically, I do not look beautiful.
She touches my cheek. I stare at her.
"Why are you doing this to yourself?" Her voice is soft and high pitched.
I don't know how to answer. "M-miss you." Is all that comes out of my mouth.
She starts crying. "Brigida, you can't keep doing this. You're not taking care of yourself like you told me you would. I know you miss me, I miss you too."
"Why didn't you visit before?"
She sighs.
"I''m busy right now, I'm trying to adjust to living at home again. It's hard. The last time I was there, you were there too. You slept with me in my bed and we watched princess movies together. We did everything together. And when I get in that bed, all I think about is how much I've hurt you. Everything that's making you sad is my fault. I shouldn't have let my dad go to your house. I should've told my mom to bring you here with me, I should've waited to tell you about my boyfriend."
The last part makes my chest hurt.
She kisses my forehead and her tears fall on my face, sliding down my cheeks.
"Why do you love him more than me?" I whisper, staring up into her grey green eyes.
She suddenly looks like someone has shot an arrow into her heart.
"It's a different kind of love," She squeaks. "Not a different quantity."
"I don't get it."
She strokes my hair. "I love him like your mom loved your dad. I love you in a completely different way. I can't describe how I love you. But it's different."
Her use of my parents makes my chest hurt again.
But then a strange feeling washes over me. I don't love her like my parents loved each other. I can't describe it either. But it's nothing like my mother and father.
"I... get it."
Her eyes widen. "You do?"
I nod.
She wraps her arms around me tight and pulls me into her lap. She smells like her perfume and coconut and cinnamon sugar and I bury my face into her sweater and breathe deeply.
We are okay.
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
for grace
I lounge
on my bed, trying to count the spots on the popcorn ceiling.
Thirteen,
fourteen...
did I already count that one?
Nah.
Fifteen.
Sixteen, seventeen, eighteen...
I blink
as the doorbell rings, and sit up, pulling on a hoodie and heading down the
hallway. I open the door and blink.
"Oh,
hi Uncle Lennon..." I grin at Raspberry and wave, slightly shyly.
Raspberry
shakes her head, and I blink again, stepping out of the doorway.
Why is
she acting so strangely?
My uncle
slips inside and drags in my cousin, looking around.
"So,
are you here all alone?"
I nod.
"Yeah, my parents went to go see a movie."
He smiles.
"Oh, I hope they have fun."
I slide
my hands into my hoodie pocket and look at Raspberry, who appears to be
nervous. I blink at my Uncle. "Um..."
He steps
closer to me, and I step back. He continues until he has me backed against a
wall, and roughly grabs my hips, slinging me over his shoulders.
I hear a
small yelp escape my lips, and close my eyes as I am thrown back onto my
mattress, which seems far less comforting now as Raspberry's father unzips my hoodie
and rips off the tank top underneath, smiling at the rhinestones on my pink bra
cups.
"Cute."
I just
stare up at him, beginning to shake.
What is he doing to me?
Raspberry
bangs on the door, which has been locked by her dad, and yells at him to let me
go.
Why does
she sound so scared? Does she know what’s happening to me?
“Raspberry!”
I scream desperately. “Help me!”
Her
father smacks me across the face and I feel his ring hard on my cheekbone.
Uncle Lennon rips away my bra and my leggings.
He leans
in and presses his lips to mine.
They
taste like cheap whiskey and lipstick. He jams his thumbs into my hipbones,
grinning as I close my eyes tightly and squeal.
He starts
biting me. His teeth are tearing into me, and it hurts.
Why is he biting me? What is he doing?
My heart
is beating out of my chest in rhythm with Raspberry’s fists on my door. My
underwear is gone, and he’s grabbing at my thighs. I feel like I am not in my
body. I feel light, like I am drifting from myself.
He is touching me. Why is he touching me so much?
It hurts.
Suddenly, my door bangs open. Raspberry grabs her father's shoulders and yanks
him away from me, tucking the blankets around my shoulders. My tears blur my
vision, and I don’t hear much but my own sobs, but I know he is hurting her. I
only see small flashes.
Raspberry’s silky pink and red hair being pulled at
harshly.
My uncle’s horrible teeth, now far too close to my
beautiful cousin’s shoulders and lips.
Her porcelain skin being kicked and shoved and torn by
dirty fingernails.
Too much.
I see too much.
And I can’t make it stop.
“Baby?”
Raspberry
is leaning close to my face. Her hair is tied into a bun and all her makeup is
off. She is wearing a pair of my sleep shorts and my big sweatshirt.
I wrap my
arms around her. She strokes my cheek where her father’s ring hit me so hard.
“Are you
okay?”
I shake
my head. “I’m scared.”
She picks
me up and rubs my back. I fight against her arms, feeling self conscious
without any clothing.
She sighs
and picks up a blanket, wrapping it around me.
I let her
pick me up again and rest my head on her chest.
“What did
he... do to me?”
She just kisses
my forehead, and I bury my face into her neck.
She
smells like Winter Candy Apple, the Bath
and Body Works scent she wears all the time. I sniff her, and she walks with me
to the couch, sitting down.
I curl up
closer to her and hide my face in her soft breasts. She tenses up for a moment
and I realize I’m probably pressing on all kinds of bruises, but then she
relaxes and returns to petting my hair.
Her shiny
black nails gently comb through all my tangles, and she begins a braid. I feel
myself release at her hands in my hair, and for the first time since my uncle
arrived, I feel calm.
I feel okay.
I am okay.
My cousin is holding me and is going to keep my safe.
My parents will be home soon and they will help to make
sure my uncle never touches me again.
I am okay.
“Raspberry?”
I feel her jump slightly, like I woke her up.
“Mm?”
“Do you
love me?”
“Do I
love...” She sounds like I’ve caught her off guard. “Of course I love you.” She
whispers into my neck.
Her
breath is warm and smells like cinnamon and sugar. I close my eyes and let her
steady chest movement completely relax my mind.
Raspberry’s voice is angry and tight.
I am still warm on the couch.
A phone slams on a cradle.
I pretend to be asleep.
I can
hear Raspberry open my bedroom door and go inside. She walks back out a few
minutes later, and I open my eyes. She is holding a pair of pink underwear, my
black leggings, and a soft sweatshirt.
Her eyes
are sad when they meet mine. She slowly makes her way over to where I’m sitting
and hands me the clothes.
“Here,
put these on.”
Her voice is still too high pitched and strained.
“Where
are we going?” I whisper, clutching the blanket tightly. Tears gather in her
eyes and spill down her pale cheeks. They fall on my forehead.
Why is she crying?
What’s going on?
Her
cracked lips tremble. “Your parents are in the... your parents drowned about an
hour ago.”
The room spins.
This isn’t real.
This is a dream.
I clutch
the couch cushions.
She
gently pries my fingers out of the fists I’ve made them into and unwraps my
warm blanket, sliding the sweatshirt over my head and guiding my arms through
the sleeves. She eases my underwear up my legs, careful of places where my
uncle grabbed me too hard, and finally, with a bit of effort, she gets me into
the cotton leggings.
Her
shoulders shake as she stares at my face.
“Pinch
me.” I command, my voice hard and angry.
She
covers her face and her sobs fill my ears.
I know this is not a dream.
My chest explodes.
My parents are dead.
A shrill siren invades my head.
It does not stop.
It is me.
I am screaming my lungs out.
When I
open my eyes again, I’m in a bright room on a couch.
People
are talking, and I smell Raspberry’s perfume. My head is in her lap and she is
snoring. Wheelchairs and stretchers scurry past. A few people look shaken. I am
in the emergency room.
I sit up
slowly and find a blanket has been draped over me. I pull it around my
shoulders and reposition myself against my cousin. She stirs slightly but
doesn’t open her eyes. Another snore tells me I haven’t woken her.
I notice
a bit of red standing out on my white sweatshirt and peek underneath. There’s a
large cut, sticky with dried blood. My skin hangs sadly, like it has accepted
defeat.
I shuffle
over to where a receptionist is holding her head in her hand and occasionally
jumping after her head nods a few times. She blinks her heavy eyelids open
wider and sits up.
“What do
you need?” Her voice is very careful and her expression is serious and sad.
I realize
then that she knows I’m their daughter.
The two bodies lying somewhere in bags have a daughter and
I am her.
I swallow
and pull at the neck of my shirt, showing her the tear. “I... I think I need
stitches...”
She nods,
looking even sadder than before.
Did Raspberry tell her what happened to me?
She
speaks into a small radio.
Silence.
A second of static.
A voice.
“Paging Dr.
Odair.”
She
smiles at me but she doesn’t really smile. “A doctor is on his way right now,
he’s going to fix it.”
I nod
slowly and sit down on the floor in front of the desk. The receptionist peers
down at me and her lip shakes before she returns to her seat. I hear her blow
her nose. I close my eyes.
Big man feet.
Scrub pants.
Manly voice.
A hand on my shoulder.
I open my
eyes and see a doctor with soft grey eyes and wavy black hair kneeling in front
of me. I just pull down my collar. He nods.
“I’m
Doctor Odair, I’m going to fix that for you.” I nod back and wince as I pull
myself up with the help of the counter.
It still
hurts.
He nods
at the receptionist, whose eyes are red and the skin around it is all puffy. He
leads me down a few hallways before selecting a room and gesturing to the bed.
I sit down and watch him gather supplies from cabinets. He closes the door
behind him, and I feel my body tense.
His
eyebrows knit together and lines on his forehead intensify. The skin around his
eyes is crinkly.
He looks nice.
But why did he close the door?
“Can you
take your shirt off for me?”
I quickly
push myself off the other side of the bed and grab a tool that’s sitting in a
tray. “No!”
He raises
both his hands. “I’m not going to hurt you. I just need you to remove your
sweater so I can stitch up this laceration without stretching out the collar on
your pretty shirt.”
“I’m not
wearing a bra.” My voice sounds small and scared.
“I
promise I will not hurt you. Do you want your cousin to come in and make sure I
don’t?”
I nod,
and my hair flops into my eye.
I don’t
fix it.
He picks
up a radio from the counter and speaks into it.
His voice
is smooth. “I need Raspberry Summers to come to Room 138.”
Silence.
A second of static.
The receptionist’s voice.
“She’s on
her way.”
Raspberry
suppresses a yawn as she enters the room. Her bun is falling apart and it has
somehow ended up on the left side of her head. She sits down in the chair close
to the bed and I return where I was before.
The
doctor holds up four thread color choices.
“Pink.” I
whisper, and he glances down at my shirt, then lifts his eyebrows.
I take a
deep breath and peek over at Raspberry.
She blows
me a kiss.
I
reluctantly pull off my warm shirt.
He
doesn’t even blink. He just examines the cut, pours a clear liquid on some
cotton, and presses it to my chest. It burns, but I don’t say anything.
He throws
the rusty colored cotton away and threads a long, curved needle.
I swallow
and squeeze my eyes shut, unable to watch as it goes through my skin and begins
its journey.
I can
feel my skin being pulled on, and an occasional stick, but it doesn’t hurt as
bad as I was afraid it would.
Suddenly,
my sweater is lying on my lap.
I open my
eyes. The doctor tosses the needle in a red box and returns his spool of thread
to a cabinet, then locks it.
I pull my
shirt back on and see Raspberry smiling at me.
“You did
a great job.” She whispers, and I run over to her, climbing into her lap. She
wraps her arms around me and I feel a light tap on my shoulder. I look over my
shoulder to see Dr. Odair half smiling at me. I half smile back.
“Thank
you.” I mumble shyly, and he touches my cheek lightly. “I’m here for you if you
ever need to talk.”
I nod and
hide my face in Raspberry’s chest. I hear her murmur something to him, but I
don’t listen to their conversation.
After the
door closes, Raspberry runs her hands through my hair again and I savor her
relaxing touch as my eyelids grow heavy.
“I’ll
come check on you every day, okay? And remember, you’re not supposed to be
living alone. You’re supposed to be living with us, so make sure no one knows
you’re staying here.”
I am back
in my house. Raspberry and her mother are working on getting my uncle out as
soon as possible, any way they can. They said my house would sell quickly so
they’re looking for an apartment for me.
Everything
is boxed up. Aunt Juli and Raspberry came to help me pack some of my parents’
furniture and all their other belongings up. They’re picking it all up tomorrow
to take to their house and keep in their attic.
I can’t stand to see it.
I can’t stand to be in this house.
Everywhere I go; there are little wisps of them,
and of me,
and my uncle’s dirty hands.
I know
they’re doing the best they can but I hope they can hurry and get me out of
this sad, haunted, painful place.
I nod at
Raspberry. “Okay. No one will find out.”
She
kisses the top of my head. “I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?”
No.
Not okay.
Don’t leave me here.
Uncle Lennon’s ghostly hands are grabbing at me, reaching
all the way from my bedroom to the foyer to get me.
Don’t leave.
I need you.
Protect me.
His hands are choking me.
I can’t breathe.
I can’t do this.
Stay.
Please.
“Okay.” I
fake a smile and she smiles back. “Okay, call me if you need anything.” I hug
her tightly and she jumps a little bit before hugging me back. “I’m coming back
tomorrow, I promise. Do you want me to stay?”
Yes.
Don’t ever leave me.
“No, it’s
okay. I’ll be okay.” I don’t want her to get worried and think I have emotional
problems and I’m too dependent on her.
She
smiles at me. “Alright... I’ll see you tomorrow then.” I nod again and try not
to cry. “And remember, my mom is going to come too to get all your parents’
things. We’re putting your house on the market at midnight tonight.”
I
swallow. “Okay.”
She
kisses my forehead. “I love you.”
I swallow
again and hope my voice doesn’t crack. “I love you too.” With that, she strokes
my cheek, steps outside, closes the door, and is gone.
The tears
flood, dripping all over the sweatshirt Raspberry let me borrow.
I hear fingernails on the cardboard boxes stacked all over
the place.
My parents are trying to get to me.
They miss me.
And I miss them.
My uncle’s hands tickle at my neck and his grimy ghost
fingers twirl the strands of hair that fall from my bun at the nape of my neck.
His sharp and snakelike voice hisses in my ear.
“Come on, girlie. Come on.” He drags me to my bedroom.
I fall to
my knees and let tears splash all over the wooden floor. Little pieces of pink
and red hair cover the planks. My bra and panties are still on the bed, small
blood stains surrounding them.
My uncle’s whispers invade both my ears. “Helpless little
girl. You’re mine. I’ll get you.”
I run to
where my couch still sits and curl up in the corner. It smells like perfume and
cinnamon-sugar.
Raspberry’s gentle fingers caress my neck, soothing the
still burning places my uncle’s fingers grazed my skin.
Her smooth voice drifts throughout the whole house.
I close
my eyes and wrap my arms around a pillow, pretending it’s my warm cousin. I’m
safe.
When I
open my eyes, the clock reads eleven.
It’s dark
outside.
All my
blinds are still open.
My door
is unlocked.
I run to
the windows and hurriedly yank on the cords, then turn the lock. My hands
shake.
My house is dark.
The nails on cardboard and my uncle’s fingers return.
I flip
all the lights in the living room on and dive back to the couch. I’m starving,
but there’s no way I’m getting up again.
Thunder
shakes the windows. I jump and look around. My cell phone is in my bedroom. I
could call Raspberry.
I dash to
my room and pick up my phone from the pillow where I tossed it earlier. It’s
dark in here, and my uncle’s laughter makes my body tremble.
Thunder
rattles the house again, and I can hear my mother’s china shake in its’ box.
The lights from down the hallway flicker and then go out.
I start
to panic.
I
hurriedly jam my fingers into the numbers that make my cousin’s phone number. I
hold it up to my ear and try to block out everything else. The phone rings
once, twice, three times.
I’m
starting to cry when her sleepy voice greets my ear. “Brigida?”
I burst
into hysterics. “Help me! I’m scared! Come get me! I can’t take it!” I can hear
her click a light on and her bed creak. “What’s going on? What’s the matter?”
“He’s touching me and I’m scared and it’s dark and youhavetohelpme!”
Raspberry’s
bed creaks some more and I hear her open her closet. “I’ll be there as soon as
I can.”
“DON’THANGUPONME!”
My voice is loud and scared.
“Shhh.
I’m not going to hang up on you. It’s okay. Put your phone on speaker, okay?”
I press
the speaker button and hold it away from my ear.
“Now use
the light from your phone to get to the door so you can wait for me.”
“Can I
sit on the couch?”
“Yes.
I’ll be there soon, okay?”
I can
hear her boots on her staircase. She mumbles something unintelligible, I’m
assuming to her mother or father, and then I hear her front door close and lock.
“Are you
okay?”
“Yes. I’m
on the couch.”
“Good.
You’re doing good, okay?”
“Okay.”
I hear a
car start, and a small click. I start sobbing again.
“Hey,
what’s wrong?”
I hiccup.
“I thought you hung up!” My voice is squeaky.
“I was
switching to Bluetooth.” Her voice is calm and beautiful and it makes me feel
better.
“Oh.” I
sniff.
“I’ll be
there soon, I’m coming as fast as I can.”
I can
hear car horns honking and Raspberry mumbling things like “eff off,”
“stupid-ass”, “titface”, and “you’re an ugly bitch”.
I assume
she’s talking to the people honking at her. I listen to her quiet roadrage for
a few minutes before I hear tires squeal and a sigh. “Okay, I just turned onto
your street.”
I start
crying again, relieved, and she tells me she loves me.
I’m too
hysterical to respond.
When my
door opens, there’s a wet spot on the pillow I put my face in and Raspberry
runs over to me, picking me up.
I gasp
for breath, making loud honking sounds as she rubs my back.
“You’re
okay, I promise.” Her chapped lips kiss my cheek repeatedly, drying up my
tears.
Stop, I want to say. You’re going
to hurt them even more.
I want her lips to be normal lips.
Not cracked and dry from anxiously licking them and covered
in red patches from biting the skin off nervously and split from a fist into an
undeserving mouth.
I want them to be soft and pink and always smiling.
I don’t
say anything.
I just
cry.
Raspberry
picks up the blanket and drapes it over my shoulders, then turns out the
lights, carries me to the porch, locks my front door, and hoists me higher on
her hip before trudging back to her car.
She
places me in the front seat, tucks the blanket around me, fastens my seatbelt,
and closes my door.
I can
hear her heavy platform boots clomp around the back of the car before she
slides in next to me.
“Can you
tell me what happened?” She asks quietly after pulling out of my neighborhood.
I close
my eyes. “I could hear my parents’ nails on the cardboard boxes. They want me
to die and come with them. They know I miss them and they want me back. Your
dad’s hands are still in my house, and his voice. He said he’d get me. He was
touching me. Your hair is on my floor.”
Raspberry
licks her lips.
“Your
lips are chapped.” I whisper, and she stops at a light. “You’re making them
worse by licking them. You need chapstick. They look like they hurt. I don’t
want them to hurt.”
She looks
over at me and smiles, the little cracks on her mouth splitting open slightly
and revealing the red underneath. “I’m okay, don’t worry.”
“I don’t
want them to hurt.” I shiver and touch her cheek.
She turns
up the heat and drives again. “They don’t hurt.”
I don’t
believe her.
When we
pull up to Raspberry’s house, the front door opens and I see her mother slowly
descend the front steps.
Raspberry
gets out of the car and Aunt Juli opens my door and scoops me out of the seat.
I rest my head on her shoulder and I hear Raspberry lock the car before
bounding up the concrete stairs and heading into the house.
Aunt Juli
follows her and locks the door behind us, then positions me on the couch.
“Are you
hungry?” Her eyes are sad and pretty.
I nod.
Raspberry
is banging around in the kitchen, and her mother peers inside, asking her
something, then smiling and sliding Cinderella in the DVD player.
I curl
closer into the velvety sofa and rub the blanket against my cheek. When
Raspberry emerges from the kitchen, Cinderella is cleaning while her sisters
sing unattractively.
Something
smells wonderful and I want to eat the entire world. Raspberry squeezes in next
to me and tucks my blanket and a quilt under a cushion to keep us from falling
off. She hands me a bowl and I peer inside.
I almost
drool at what I find.
Not quite
done chocolate chip cookies have been squished into a huge pit of hot, still
doughy cookie stuff. It’s been attacked with hot fudge and whipped cream.
She
smiles at me. “Nothing makes someone feel happier than chocolate.”
I kiss
her cheek shyly and dip the spoon into the cookie magic. Raspberry watches as I
take a bite.
“Do you
like it?”
I can
only make pleased noises in response until I swallow. “That’s the best thing
I’ve ever eaten.”
After
quickly devouring the entire contents of the bowl, I snuggle into Raspberry and
let her play with my hair. It sends warmth through my entire body and makes me
feel like I’m glowing. She twists it into a braid and then rakes her fingers
through it, destroying her progress. She splits my hair into two parts and
twirls it around my ears like Princess Leia. She lets them both drop and then
just strokes my hair.
Comb.
Twirl.
Kiss.
Her
fingers are gentle and cold when they touch my neck. I grab her wrists and
press her fingers to my lips, kissing them occasionally.
She
blinks down at me.
“Your
hands are cold.” I whisper, closing my eyes. She slips her hands under my shirt
and presses them to my back, pulling me closer to her. I bury my face in her
neck as I listen to Cinderella cry after her dress has been ruined.
When my
eyes are open, I’m warm and enveloped in Raspberry’s arms in a nest of blankets.
The clock reads four, and its pitch black outside.
I move
closer to her and put my face in front of hers on the pillow so that our noses
touch. Her warm breath tickles my cheeks and smells like the toothpaste that
settled in the corner of her mouth and chapstick and sleepiness.
I love her.
I exhale
slowly, press my lips into hers, and let her air fill my mouth. One of her eyes
opens and then it rolls back into her head before closing again.
I close
mine too, and focus on her soft snores. I press my head into her chest and
listen to her heart beat.
The
rhythm is slow and perfectly constant.
A kiss on
my forehead pulls my eyelids back open and I smile at Raspberry, whose
unbrushed hair tickles my face and neck.
“Good
morning.” Her voice is low and raspy like I remember it being when we had
sleepovers in her bedroom on Christmas Eve.
I hug her
tightly. “Hi.” Saying good morning has always felt strange to me, like the
words didn’t belong in my mouth. And I don’t think today will be a very good
day, with going back to that terrible house and spending hours on end there.
She hugs
me back, and her strong arms make me feel secure.
“My mom
wants us to leave by twelve. We’re going to get lunch and then go get the boxes
and any of your stuff you want to take.”
“I want
to burn my bed.” I whisper into her hair, which smells like coconut.
She rubs
my back. “Okay, if we can find a place to burn your bed, I promise we’ll burn
it. I’ll even let you light it.”
I smile.
“Thank you. And I want to burn that stupid bra and...”
I’m
suddenly crying, thinking about everything in that painful, unbearable bedroom
full of my shattered happiness and Raspberry’s hair and the disgusting taste of
my uncle’s harsh and unforgettable lips.
“Okay.”
She rocks me back and forth. “We’ll burn it all.”
“I want
to keep the sweatshirt from California
I got with my parents.”
“Okay.
We’ll keep that.”
I nod and
stand up. She looks surprised that I pulled away.
“I want
to hurry and get there so we can get rid of it all.”
She nods
slowly, like she understands, then walks to her closet. I watch as she looks
through the rack of clothes.
After
searching for a couple of minutes, she pulls a peach colored sweater from a
rack and tosses it to me. It’s soft.
She
closes the closet doors and slides a dresser drawer open, digging through
countless pairs of pants.
She
finally selects an old pair of light brown corduroys, holds them up, examines
the waist and looks at the tag, then looks at me, and sends them my way as
well.
I study
her walls. A picture of us last Christmas Eve is hanging above her bed. The
rest of the wall space is covered with photos of Aunt Juli and sloppily cut out
pictures of women from magazines with tan skin, large breasts, dark hair, and
blue eyes.
There are
post it notes stuck to all of them.
One says,
“Fix yourself” in Uncle Lennon’s handwriting and then, “HA!” in Raspberry’s
with a sketchy hand showing off its middle finger.
Another
says, “You’re not pretty yet” and then, “YOU SEEM TO THINK SO QUITE OFTEN”. I
don’t want to think about what that means.
Suddenly
Raspberry is laughing. I look at her. She points to me. I don’t understand.
Then I feel something tickle my nose. A bra strap is hanging from my head. She
has thrown me a bra and it has landed on my head. I giggle and let her take my
picture, then rest it on the pants and sweater.
She looks
at my feet for a minute and kneels by a set of racks where all of her shoes are
lined up perfectly. “You’re a five, right?” I nod, then realize she can’t see
me. “Yes.”
She runs
a hand through her hair and pulls a pair off the bottom rack.
Her old
moccasins. She used to wear them all the time.
She peers
over her shoulder. “These okay?”
I nod
again, and she draws herself to her feet. “Come on.”
I follow
her to the bathroom and she closes the door.
It smells like everything Raspberry does.
Coconut, Winter Candy Apple, chapstick, toothpaste,
cinnamon, and sugar.
She
quickly swallows four little pills and sets down a pile of clothes that I
hadn’t even realized she’d picked out.
I can’t
help but watch as she drops her sleep shorts. Her hipbones stick out and
red-purple-green bruises cover her thighs. My eyes are drawn up as she lifts
her shirt off. Her ribs show themselves off and her pale skin stretches over
them tight as her arms go higher. Her breasts nearly spill out of her bra cups.
She looks
over at me and I quickly avert my eyes. She laughs quietly and out of the
corner of my eye I can see her tug a pair of tights over her creamy white legs
and settle a lavender dress over her head, slide her arms into the soft
sleeves, and turn to me.
“How does
it look?” The pretty fabric fits perfectly over her large chest and hugs her
waist affectionately. The skirt falls to her lower thighs, and the sleeves are
down to her delicate hands, slightly long, just like she wants.
“Perfect.”
She
smiles at me and kisses my nose. “Thank you. Let’s see what yours looks like.”
I nod and
shyly step out of the pajama pants I ended up in, then quickly zip myself into
her soft corduroys.
I turn away
then, and let my sweatshirt fall to the floor as I look at my stitches sadly. I
fit my arms through the bra straps and don’t turn to meet Raspberry’s eyes as
she hooks the back of it for me.
I bend to
pick up the sweater, and pull it on with ease. It’s big and soft and warm. The
sleeves nearly cover my whole hands. Raspberry smiles as I face her again.
“That’s cute.”
I look in
the mirror. “Thank you.”
She
kisses my cheek and picks up a hairbrush from the counter. I watch as she yanks
it through her hair. The tangles make loud tearing noises and at one point the
bristly part breaks off from the handle.
She sighs
as if this is normal, plucks the top from where it hangs in a clump of her
hair, and shoves it back into the bottom before returning to her task.
She
smiles at her reflection when her hair is perfectly silky and flows over her
shoulders with ease.
I brace
myself when she turns to me, but her brushing is completely different in my
hair. She slowly and gently drags the brush through, stopping on tangles to
pick them apart with her fingers.
It feels amazing.
I love her.
I close my eyes and enjoy the steady motion of her hands in
my hair.
Brush, pick, brush, brush, brush.
When I
reopen my eyes, my hair looks prettier than it has in days, and a small braid
starts at my hairline, wraps over the top of my head, and is tied off with a
peach colored ribbon and bobby pinned on the other side.
I smile
up at her. “Thank you.”
She nods
and plugs in her curling iron before digging around in a drawer and pulling out
eyeliner, eyeshadow, mascara, two tubs of creamy white stuff, and a tube of
lipstick labeled “SALSA”.
She wraps
her hair around the curling iron a small section at a time, and when she pulls
the steaming rod away, a perfect corkscrew curl bounces down and makes her look
even more elegant than before.
Her hair
isn’t like mine, where if you curl it, you look like a doll from the 1900’s.
Hers just falls in long, loose, but still perfectly corkscrewy pieces. She just
barely wraps her bangs around the iron and holds it for a few seconds before
pulling it out. They do exactly what they were meant to do and curl under to
tickle the top of her eye socket.
“Wow.” Is
all I can manage to whisper.
She turns
off the iron and looks at me. “Do you want to wear any makeup?”
I shake
my head and she laughs. “You’re lucky, you don’t have to.”
“What do
you mean?”
“You look
adorable all the time.”
I feel my
face grow red. “Well I think you’re very pretty all the time.”
She picks
me up and sits me down on the counter, pressing a chocolate kiss into my palm.
I unwrap
it slowly and watch as she pulls a tall, cushioned stool out from beside the
toilet and sits down to the rainbow of face products she brought out.
I set the
chocolate on my tongue and close my mouth.
She
squirts a line of mint gel on her toothbrush and viciously scrubs her teeth,
making her lips and cheeks quiver. When she’s done, she spits and goes back
over her whole mouth with minty water until no more bubbles come out into the
sink.
Then she
puts more paste on the brush and I think she’s going to do the whole thing
again, but she hands it to me.
I run
water on top of the gooey bristles and swallow the last of my kiss before
putting the toothbrush in the bottom left corner of my mouth and slowly moving
it around.
She picks
up a soft pancake looking thing and scoops up some pinkish white stuff, then
spreads it all over her face. It blends in with her skin tone and covers up a
small zit popping up on her chin.
Then she
presses the pancake into another tub of pale something, and covers her face
with it too. Now she is completely spotless and matte cream color.
She opens
up the eyeshadow and rubs the little padded stick in black dust before coating
her eyelids in it.
She is transforming into my vixen cousin who I am sometimes
afraid of,
who sometimes yells at me and calls me immature,
who doesn’t love me nearly as much as my sweet Raspberry
who holds me at night and kisses my tears away.
I don’t know if this person even likes me.
She
covers her eyelashes in black goo and then draws thick lines on the very bottoms
of her smoky eyelids, turning them up at the ends.
She
closes every product but the lipstick, and carefully paints it on the two peaks
of her upper lip and the middle of her lower, making her mouth look like a
Japanese doll’s.
She looks
over at me and her eyebrows come together in the middle of her forehead.
Oh, no.
She’s angry at me.
She’s going to tell me to get out.
She’s going to call me immature and spoiled and annoying and
tell me she doesn’t want to see me anymore.
She’s going to tell me she hates me.
Oh, no. No.
She
stands up and leans over, gently plucking the toothbrush from my mouth and
rinsing it off.
She puts
it in a cup and wipes my mouth with a towel.
I spit
into the sink and slide off the counter.
She pulls
her big black platform boots over her calves and zips them up, then puts all
the buckles together.
I step
into her soft, worn, furry inside moccasins.
She
smiles at me. I don’t smile back; still afraid she might get mad at any moment.
She looks
sad. “What’s wrong?”
“You’re
her again.”
“I’m
who?”
“Her. The
one who yells at me and doesn’t love me.”
“I
don’t...” She shakes her head, seeming confused.
“Usually
when I see her she yells at me. You yell at me.”
Her mouth
falls open. Oh, no. Last time that happened, she slapped me.
I
hurriedly open the door and start running, halfway tripping down the stairs.
She catches my shoulder and jerks me around to look at her. I teeter on the
edge of a step, and she pulls me closer.
“You’re
afraid of me when I wear the makeup... because I get angry at you sometimes?”
“You’ve
never gotten mad at me when you’re not wearing it! You’re different!” My voice
is high and on the verge of hysterical.
“Oh,
baby, it has nothing to do with the makeup. It’s me. I’m still here. Sometimes
I can’t control how I act. The only reason you’ve never seen me get mad without
the makeup is because most of the time, I’m wearing it.”
Her voice
is calm and gentle, like she’s afraid of pushing me to tears again. “I... have
something called Bipolar disorder. Sometimes my mood changes too quickly for me
to control things I say or do. That’s why sometimes I’m happy and then I start
yelling at you... I didn’t know it hurt your feelings so bad.”
Her voice
has changed again. It’s catching on words and it’s unusually hushed. “You know
my dad hurts me.”
I nod.
“Sometimes
I get... sad... and I can’t deal with it. When you were around before and it
happened, I would lash out at you because you’d never had to deal with what I
do. I was jealous of you. You were still happy and innocent and so lucky. So
sometimes...” Her throat moves as a loud gulping noise emerges. “I hated you.”
She wraps
her arms around me tight and lifts me off the step. “I couldn’t even stand to
be around you because of how unfair it was.”
Finally,
I start crying. My throat and chest hurt too bad to keep it in anymore.
“Oh God,
don’t cry,” Her voice is shaking. “You’re going to make me.”
I make
those horrible embarrassing honking noises and hide my face in my hands.
“I
thought you didn’t love me. Because last time you said you hated me.”
I feel
her soft chest cave in with a loud exhale. “I love you. I love you so much.” I
feel her pull me up higher, and I wrap my legs around her waist.
She
carries me the rest of the way down the soft, plush staircase and sits down on
the couch, holding me tighter than she ever has before, like I’m the most
valuable thing in the whole world.
I close
my eyes.
Her hand
slowly moves up and down my back, and I can feel her frigid fingers through the
sweater.
“Your
hands are cold.” I whisper.
She
doesn’t say anything, just keeps her hand moving.
Monday, January 20, 2014
Sunday, January 19, 2014
"i hate you" (Pepper)
I look up at Carleigh as she saunters by my desk, dropping a small piece of paper. I unfold it nervously, my hands shaking. 'you're a fat piece of shit and you look like a deformed whale that's been out of the water too long xoxo'. I press my lips together and pick up my binder and purse, storming back out of the classroom. I hear Carleigh snort behind me. I can't sit in that room and listen to them whisper about me and my fat face and thighs. I lock myself into a bathroom stall just as the bell rings. How do I do this? I push my bangs back with a couple of bobby pins and try to decide what to do with the little pieces of hair that hang around my face. I can't put it in a ponytail. I tuck them behind my ears and hope they stay. I hang my head over the toilet bowl and get down on my knees. I try to make myself gag. This is weird and it's not working. I press two fingers into the part of my neck between my collarbones. I make some gagging noises. Nothing happens. I stare at my reflection in the water. My round, fleshy face wavers at me. Tears fall and make ripples in my fatty cheeks. "I hate you." I whisper, clawing at my thighs. They're too busy making out to care about how I feel. Maybe I can make myself puke purely out of disgust of myself. I wait five, ten, fifteen minutes. It doesn't happen. Finally, I unlock my phone and decide to google it. 'How do I make myself puke?' About a million yahoo answers pop up I tap one and read the one voted most helpful by asker. 'Put your pointer and middle finger into your mouth and shove them in the back of your throat. You'll probably have to wiggle them around for a while. Don't stop when you feel yourself start to gag. Keep going until you get something up. Then retch away.' I return my phone to my purse and hang it on the little thing on the door, then look at myself one more time in the water. I poke my fat roll. I close my eyes and shove my fingers back into my throat. I move them around, making sure to touch the uvula a lot. Finally, I gag. I don't stop. I'm leaning over the toilet with my hand in my mouth, gagging uncontrollably, and then it happens. I hurriedly pull my fingers out and let everything I've eaten today exit my body. I hack a little bit, forcing more and more until nothing comes up but clear liquid. I rest my head on the cool porcelain seat and close my eyes. The stuff that came out of my stomach smells disgusting but I have to rest. Finally, after taking a couple minutes to breathe, I flush the toilet and drop my purse back over my head. I step out of the stall and look in the mirror. I'm shockingly white and sweaty looking. I pull the bobby pins from my hair and brush it out quickly. I look in the mirror at my stomach. It's still huge but seems smaller than before. Maybe this will work for me. It wasn't so bad. In fact, it wasn't bad at all. I smile at myself, but stop when I see how much fatter my cheeks look. Ew. I wash my hands and splash some water into my mouth before giving up and shoving a piece of gum in. The bell rings, and I join the crowd in the halls to go to my last period.
Thursday, January 16, 2014
I button up my blazer tighter to cover a bruise on my mid-chest. Ew, I look like a nun. I pull my skirt up higher and then realize the backs of my thighs are covered in all kinds of marks, then pull it back down and hitch my knee high socks up higher. I see a guy on a bench scan his eyes up and down quickly and I smile at him, but he just looks back down. I should have left my skirt up and my shirt down. I hurry through the park and try to avoid anyone from school. I clutch my backpack straps harder as I reach the exclusive gated neighborhood I live in now. My bag feels like it weighs three hundred pounds. The report card is a brick that gets heavier with each step I take. I can already feel the sting of his hands on my thighs. He's going to be so angry. By the time I reach my front door, I'm shaking, unable to breathe. My lungs are tiny and I can't fill them with air. I turn my key in the hole and step into the foyer, swallowing as I look around. "Daddy?" My strained voice echoes through the house. I drop my bag on the floor and fish around for the report card. When I find it, my heart beats harder. I slowly begin the climb upstairs. Oh God, what's he going to do to me? I failed almost everything. I knock on his door, and I hear the bed creak. "Come in." I turn the knob and step inside. He sits up. "What is it?" "I have my report card." My hands shake violently. He laughs. "Oh goody. Come here." I shuffle over and press it into his hand. He pulls it out of the little envelope and unfolds it. I stare at my shoes. I hear him snort. "Really? God, you're stupid." I bite my lip. "Did you look at this?" "Yes." "Well I'm surprised you even brought it to me." "I have to get it signed." He laughs and grabs a pen, sloppily scrawling his name on the line. "I'm very concerned about your daughter," he reads from the comments box. "She doesn't seem to understand any of the material." I look up at him through my bangs. "Daddy, it's too hard." "No, you're just stupid." I run a hand through my hair and try not to cry. "I feel that Reyna is a special girl, but she can't seem to grasp anything we do." That must be from Mr. Andersen. "Oh look, Reyna. You even got a little note from the counselor. You're so stupid, they want to move you back to sixth grade." Then I start crying. "It's so hard, Daddy! It's not my fault! It's too hard! I can't do it!" He stands up and slaps me hard across the cheek. "Shut up. Everyone else can do it. Why do you think that is?" I take a deep breath. "Because I'm stupid." "That's right. Now get on the bed." I sigh and unbutton my shirt, then let it fall to the floor with the rest of my school uniform. He smirks at me and snaps his fingers as if to hurry me along. I sit on his bed and stare up at him. He makes a circular motion with his finger and I reluctantly roll onto my stomach. I close my eyes tightly while he reminds me what a disappointment I am.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
omfg the tree and the beer bottle
Castelleno
I jump. I look at the tree and gasp, covering my mouth with my hand. Who would throw a beer bottle at an innocent tree?!
Kristina
Did someone just throw a beer bottle at a tree? Hold on man, I'm f--king lost.
Reyna
HEY DON'T THROW BOTTLES AT TREES. TREES HAVE FEELINGS TOO B--CH.
Raspberry
Some fugly ρυик αѕѕ вιт¢н throwing bottles at trees. -.-
Ophelia
Oh my. That poor little tree. I wonder if it's okay...
Blanche
Hey that kid just threw a beer bottle at a tree. LITTERBUGGG. AND ALSO UNDERAGE DRINKER AND ILLEGAL DRUGGIE. Oh wait.
Castor
Hey woah. Some guy must have anger issues cause he threw a bottle at a tree... wish I had a beer. Hmph.
Kyle
I watch as the bottle shatters against the tree. That was beautiful. I grab a blank canvas and begin to paint it.
Ben
Crazy kids.
Alexei
Hey. I know how it feels to get hit with beer bottles kid. Don't mistreat that tree.
Karl
Woah... that... tree. I go hug the tree. "I know how it feels to get hit for no reason."
Brett
I hug the tree as well. "This poor thing."
Desmond
I laugh as some guy throws a bottle at a tree. What a stupid αѕѕ kid.
I jump. I look at the tree and gasp, covering my mouth with my hand. Who would throw a beer bottle at an innocent tree?!
Kristina
Did someone just throw a beer bottle at a tree? Hold on man, I'm f--king lost.
Reyna
HEY DON'T THROW BOTTLES AT TREES. TREES HAVE FEELINGS TOO B--CH.
Raspberry
Some fugly ρυик αѕѕ вιт¢н throwing bottles at trees. -.-
Ophelia
Oh my. That poor little tree. I wonder if it's okay...
Blanche
Hey that kid just threw a beer bottle at a tree. LITTERBUGGG. AND ALSO UNDERAGE DRINKER AND ILLEGAL DRUGGIE. Oh wait.
Castor
Hey woah. Some guy must have anger issues cause he threw a bottle at a tree... wish I had a beer. Hmph.
Kyle
I watch as the bottle shatters against the tree. That was beautiful. I grab a blank canvas and begin to paint it.
Ben
Crazy kids.
Alexei
Hey. I know how it feels to get hit with beer bottles kid. Don't mistreat that tree.
Karl
Woah... that... tree. I go hug the tree. "I know how it feels to get hit for no reason."
Brett
I hug the tree as well. "This poor thing."
Desmond
I laugh as some guy throws a bottle at a tree. What a stupid αѕѕ kid.
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